My only excuse is that I have had many changes in my life over this time and have been slowly sorting my way through the ups and downs. I feel ready now to take on a new direction in my life and finally have somewhat of an idea of what I want it to be.
I think what has literally paralyzed me these past years has been an overabundance of choices. I have way too many interests and "hobbies"! All of my life I have been plagued with BSOD, Bright Shiny Object Disorder. I fall in love with a project and buy all of the supplies for it, but before it is even done, I am enchanted with something new! I love to garden, knit, sew, quilt, read, play with my dogs, take pictures, scrapbook, do yoga, write, create art of all sorts, do all types of crafts...and the list goes on. Notice that cleaning and cooking were not in my list of things I love to do, but I have faced the fact that I do have to devote some of my precious time to those things in the interest of survival and comfort!
So I have decided to go in the direction of exploring my artistic interests in the field of mixed media. I also opened an Etsy shop that features my fabric creations. Right now I am working on building up a line of decorative banners that celebrate special events or just add a bit of fun to a room or area. I have no idea where either of these endeavors will take me, but it should be an interesting journey!
Also, I am struggling with finding myself in the position of being a reluctant "empty-nester". I am working on sorting out my emotions and coming to accept my new position of "maternal unemployment". Well, not total unemployment but certainly underemployment. My kids have been the center of my life for 30 years and now they are all out on their own with their own lives to live. Which is as it should be, but it doesn't make it any less painful or lonely for me. I'll probably touch on this in some of my future posts - at least I'm thinking about future posts now, which is a step in the right direction!
I did give up my Stampin' Up! demonstratorship this past October. I had been with the company since 1999 and loved every minute of it! I met all of ladies who have become my closest friends through my stamping and scrapbooking classes and business. But I was ready to move on and follow my own star.
So here I am...starting anew, with no idea where my life will take me. Fearful, scared, at times terrified, but if I don't give it a try now I'll live with regret for the rest of my life! And I don't want to look back and think..."what if...?"
And so.....we're off......on this new adventure....
See you again soon!